Si vous ne le voulait

Your lips seethed with lies.
I watched them pour out of your mouth, fleeing like butterflies as they worked their way slowly to me.
No matter how much I swatted they kept building their cocoon, a twisted web of black matter sweeping me slowly from my feet and now I'm surrounded,
"Surrounded" I tell you but you just won't stop your swarming, still seething lips of delirious lies that cannot be contained even by my last, slow, painful, dying breath.
And when all is dark I fix myself to the walls of your madness, groping with heavy footsteps to find my faint point of truth but there is none.
You've ensnared me, encompassed me in your rabid effervescence and I'm forced to creep into the ludicrous world you have built here for me.
It's pretty fabulous, isn't it, what one lie can do..

An Impurity

"Just like you said"
Was all the reply
But she wasn't so sure this time...
It wasn't one of eight,
Or four, or three,
But mindfulness couldn't be so tricky
Or could it?
He gave her hand a squeeze
"Trust me. I know everything"
And with that she was whisked away.
He shattered her.
It was a many colored lie.
Her face colored pink
She was told that safety was here
In this living moment
Just like devotion said it would be.
And she believed.
Or for a second at least...
But that mindfulness lied.
His eights, fours and threes were not noble,
His heart impure,
His mind not rightful
And she was gone.
Lost in oblivion.
It was all she could do to stay in line.

-Lacee Kae

You Wouldn't Know Me

This time, it won't be enough to just blink once or twice.
This time, nothing that we do will ever seem right.
But what I know is right in front of me,
Standing there clearly for all to see,
But it's so hard to accept fate for what it is
In all its never ending wisdom and glory.
In this moment I can't help myself.
I'm drowning my sorrow in pools of doubt
And fear. It tries driving me away from here,
But you stay in my place as I'm gasping for air.
So I'll yell to the sky and weep at its feet
To forgive me for everything I can't repeat
And it isn't my fault that I've been left like this
No it's just Mother Nature's unlawful gift
To a girl with kaleidoscope eyes that don't hide
The pale gift that she's always hidden inside
But for everyone's sake she just can't repeat
What she knows to be true as she sits at the sky's feet.

-Lacee Kae

Seething

I don't know where to start. I go back and forth, pacing my mind like I'd pace my apartment floor if only my feet were on the ground. But I'm not there. I'm here in timeless space where nothing makes any sense anymore; a mix and mash of mediocre emotion all in a shit pile of inoperable memories that I can't control even when I am behind the wheel of this car that's slowly starting to speed out of control. My brain is clouded. It's stuck in an endless fog that I'm forced to stumble around in without reason. The words, "Where am I?" escape from my mouth and for once I am unsure of anything but myself and my emotions, and how scary everything feels, and how crazy this life is, and in how many directions I could go stumbling in this unforgiving fog. And for what? For simplicity. For serenity. For everlasting peace of mind. For everything and nothing. For love and happiness. For courage. For strength. For... myself.

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She draped the sigh over him like a midnight cloud. "What's more," she said, "is that we're all atoms, and that's all we can ever be. Nothing more, nothing less." His growth finally stunted, he whisked her away where the moon's glistening eyes had no right to wander, and they bathed in a pool of infinite starlight where the sky had no end and the ground no beginning. The fluttering beats sank into her breath and the two went hand in hand. The river quickened pace to course around them as atoms intertwined and breaths became a whisper. Love was nothing more than a symphony and nothing less than a melody, and it rang through the night like a mocking bird ready to flee as the sun forced itself upon the earth.