Can't Explain

Something doesn't make sense here
With these intimacies out of place
You sigh indignantly
But never find a way to replace
The emotions you've held onto all your life
Not realizing what they do
To anyone who gets to know
What's going on inside of you
Instead you roam the vast plains
Of the workings of your mind
Sighting what cannot be yours
On that horizon where you find
That there's no room for delicacies
None for souvenirs
Just a place to rest your head
In the bed of all your fears
So push, and pull, and fight
And go to the extremes
To sleep in quiet serenity
Where the sky will meet your dreams.

Lacee Kae <3

Musings On Love

Here's a recap of my thoughts on love as I nearly went crazy with boredom yesterday from locking myself up in my room (within good reason of course, didn't want anyone else catching my cold):

Untitled Poem

Excuse my affection
For a moment my dear
Although not showing it would be dreadful
At least to me...
I could tell you everything or nothing,
But you wouldn't believe.
You're just not that way.
To you I'm a stranger
And in many ways I am to myself
Yet that should stop none
Of your peculiar adoration for me.
Whether today or tomorrow
I'm afraid I can't tell
Because time is infinitely good in your presence.
Everything is worth it with you.

Other thoughts:
-I remember being a child and reminiscing on love. How simple I believed it was, but little did I know of its complexity. How unsure we become of ourselves when it comes to the subject.

-Everything I'd like to say stops and runs like a frightened deer when I'm near you. It's like a speech I'm not prepared for...

-I'm sorry, I'm afraid my head and my heels have met some confusion!

-Every good love song starts with heartache

and also PSYCHE! because that's what love feels like sometimes.

Written September 7th, Blogged September 8th
Lacee Kae <33

To become something more

Than a misleading game

Is uninquisitive in every word,

Irrevocably insensitive to your nature,

Not "normal" for your self esteem.

But as intriguing as you believe you are

It's nothing more than pity

That has your audience gasping for return.

If you ever want some real advice

I'd suggest a slot in universal time

Where you can take a moment to view the world

From a new perspective.

Believe, dear, that this is no plea,

Not recognition for your tragedies,

But rather an unsophisticated memoir

Of your hopes and dreams,

Pounding through the night like wolves

On the prowl to save themselves

From the winter cold envisioned in their blood.

Their ancestry leads them home

As will your truths...

So follow them there.

Lacee Kae <33

Truth

I told myself I wouldn't feel this way, that my life was going in an utterly new direction and then you stepped in... My world did a 180 degree backflip and now I hang here with my hair in front of my eyes, the blood rushing to my head and I feel so alive in every way. "You fool!" I yell at myself, but I just can't catch my breath when you're around. My mouth is dry and I am speechless, and this lack of blood to the rest of my body is making me woozy. I'd drop to my knees if only I could, but my circumstance makes it impossible. And yet you're there, always standing two feet on the ground, so calm and certain of where everything is going for you, unaffected by my presence here in my parallel universe, or at least it appears as such to me. I could only wish you would join me here, either that or stop my 5th grade antics for just a moment so I could see things clearly. Hold me close darling, keep me safe, it's what I need from you right now.

September 7, 2009

Lacee Kae