Summer Falls

And all at once
I was stuck
Tired eyes
My body struck
Within resistance boils up
Stranger now that I'm face up
No sleep
Helplessly alone I weep
Desperation calls
In the silence of these walls
Never once have I recalled
Anguish that alone befalls
The silence that I keep

-LKS 6/23/11

Honesty Hour - 7pm - 6/19/11

I run. I run because I can't stand to sit in front of someone and reveal the most vulnerable parts of myself. I don't know what vulnerable means. Just when I think I want to find out, I run again. I run for dear life. I don't want to run, but I do it anyway. How do I fix me?

Forget Everything

Where are we now?
Apathetic show and tell
Searching for a cause somehow
Never really rang a bell

Unless you take into account
The flexibility of a vow
With fingers crossed it won't amount
To the place that we are now.

I've forgotten everything
Even that look upon your face
Memories that it would bring
Are shadowed now by such disgrace

But gladly I refuse to note
Such sorrow in the songs you sing
Tired of the endless quote
Now I've forgotten everything.

-LKS 6/18/11

Growth and Change

To grow sometimes we need to make sacrifices. We need change and we need it now. These changes are not always easy. No wait... they're never easy. I've been trying to make it a point to revamp my entire lifestyle. I need to think about my future in realistic terms. To do this I have been forced to examine myself more critically than I could have ever imagined. I've needed to sacrifice some of the things that I love, but I feel positive about everything that's happening. I know that I am changing the right things. I feel confident. Ok... maybe I'm a little scared, but mostly confident.

-xo