Nothing. Everything.

I am lost in space, in translation. Time itself is eating me alive; overwhelming me with consciousness. I am neither here nor there but I am everywhere. I am part of everything. My atoms are yours and yours mine. I breath with your lungs. I go where you go. I keep in time with your thoughts, your movements. There is no space in between my thoughts and yours because they are one in the same. I am nothing. You are nothing. I am everything. You are everything. Just floating there all at once. Floating. Withdrawing from gravity. Moving through time like I am everything; like you are everything; like we are nothing all at once.

Easy Summers

I miss easy summer afternoons,
Sweet like honeysuckle,
Mellow like morning hours.
The breeze, like velvet,
Runs through my hair,
Caresses my skin,
Illuminating that feeling
Of being alive.
Sunlight,
With its friendly kiss,
Drifts in.
Weightless. Endless.
There you sit
Glowing in the radiant warmth
Of a summer day.
Everything is right.
We're alright.

- LKS. January 28, 2012.

In Regards To Insecurity

Let me step back for a minute an take a look at myself. This is a moment of weakness; insecurity showing through. I will not have this. I am stronger than this. This is petty and I am not. This will not overcome me because I will not let it. I will move forward through this moment and treat it like it doesn't exist, like it is a forgotten memory.

I must look at all the good in my life, appreciate it, appreciate the beautiful things that life has given to me and that I have worked for. In comparison this moment of weakness is nothing. It does not compare to all of the beauty I will endure in the upcoming months. This moment is equivalent to a speck of dust in the universe. It is not tragic, it is not life changing, it is just dust.

I feel better already.

Of Spring: A Letter To My Friends

Wow. This feels different. Really different. I feel good. I feel confident. I feel competent and de-stressed and motivated and invincible. I feel beautiful. In this moment, I feel the way everyone should feel. I feel happy.

Last semester was by far the worst semester of my college career. I couldn't focus, I had no drive, I felt like I wasn't going anywhere. I was focused on petty things and was getting frustrated easily. Long story short, I needed this winter break more than I ever thought possible. And I come to you now feeling like a different person. Hopefully my attitude has changed visibly because I was a jerk last semester and boy do I know it! I made mistakes. I made stupid decisions. But I have learned from my hardships and for that I am thankful. I am thankful that today is a new day, and so is tomorrow. I am thankful for this new year and am thankful that my friends stuck with me even though I was rotten last Fall. I love you and am forever graced and blessed to have you in my life. Seriously, you don't know how much all of you mean to me. You are my saving grace, and I learn a lot about life, love, and all kinds of other things from you each day. Yes, I have to get sappy for a minute.

So this semester if I talk too much, get too excited, call you too often, am always smiling, am out on the weekends, am asleep by 10pm on weekdays talk too much about Coachella, talk to much about turning 21, or any combination of the above things, know that I want you to join me here, in this place of happy and that is why I do these things. I hope that the positivity I feel right now persists and spreads and infects each and every one of you. You are gorgeous, talented people. You deserve to feel invincible. You deserve to feel the goodness of youth for as long as possible, to live and breath its scent each and every moment of each and every day. I know it's hard. We are all extremely busy individuals and the semester will not get any easier. But seriously, take time for yourself this semester. Take time out with your friends. Put that paper off another day. And remember that you are only young once and that you only live once.

Be free.

-Lacee